I've lived my life

I have lived my life for almost 25 years now..
Oftenly I asked myself..

"Have I done something good?"

"Have I accomplished anything that I've ever plan for?"

"Have I ever made my family or parents proud?"

or
like what Mba Dyta wrote in her FB status..

"Have I learned to be a Humanity Human?"

or even

"If I die tomorrow, can I go to Heaven for being just ME?"

When the eyes of ours are totally shutted..

When the ride we have finally stopped working (a.k.a. body)

What would happen?

What can I do next?


These are the thoughts in my head right now..
for seeing Blood, Laugh, Nature, Kids, Fakes and Tears everyday.
I played, I paused, I jogged and recorded it.


For me, for now, for all I know..
Am just a cassette or CD whom destined to be who I am..

Maybe, I was just have to play along.. and accept what has been written before I was even born..

Just try my best to be Me..

Try to do what I know best..

And with unstoppable trying to find my own true GOD again.


Amien
(is it enough now?)









 

Jakarta, 15 April 2010

(04:09am)

"Two Steps Away" by Patti LaBelle

It's hard to see the fear inside
As I walk away from you
And distance overcomes the miles
As slowly I pull through
And I cannot reach the world today
Cuz I'm suffering from you
And the more I think, the more I cry
As I walk away from you

[Chorus:]
I'm two steps away
From loneliness
I'm awake
From the mess we made
I'm alive
And I'm feeling incomplete

I don't understand my life
Or the version that chose you
And the warring hearts and winter came
Now there's nothing left to do
And I cannot reach the world today
Cuz I'm suffering from two
And the more I think, the more we die
As I walk away from you

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
I'm two steps away
I'm two steps away
I'm two steps away
I'm two steps away

Two steps away
Two steps away
From loneliness
I'm awake
From the mess we made
I'm alive

Two steps away
Two steps away
Two steps away


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5md62id8Wxk